you wasted it. yet u couldn’t even say anything.
No matter how many smokes I have to inhale in and blow away the pain, it doesn’t seem to go away, no matter how many times I gotta hit up a joint to get high and forget about my pain, it doesn’t seem to go away, no matter how many walls I gotta punch to break this pain it doesn’t seem to work. I ask myself what do I do from this point? How can I wake up every day knowing that nothing will be the same anymore. I guess this it is what it is, and I gotta bare through it. I don’t need an answer to this pain. People say we take 2 steps forward and 1 step back, but as for now I don’t need to take steps back, I need to take 5 steps forward and move on. Don’t look at the rear view mirror, I gotta look through the wind shield and see what’s infront of me. I gotta keep my head up and smile, I can’t be sure this aching will go away tomorrow or the next day, but eventually it will be gone and I can forget everything, its hard moving on but you gotta do what you gotta do. I know there no more going back after this. As we live we make mistakes and we learn from it, that is how we become a better person. I’m not the best guy out there, and I did a lot of stupid shit and fucked up big time, but yenno what I learned from it, it wasn’t right away but it slowly got to me, and helped me realize what’s right and what’s wrong. Girls are like fishes there a lot of them around, catching a small one isn’t that hard cuz u don’t need to work hard to pull them in and when u take a bite it will be gone, but if you try catching a big one, u gotta put a lot of effort on trying to pull them in, and when u take a bite it won’t be gone cuz ur gonna need to take a lot of bites for it to be gone. I guess now, forget about the pass, and live life to the fullest, keep my head up high and smile and stay strong.
Ill miss you, have fun and be safe dad. Love ya.
woke up today looking out of the window, seeing the sun shining, took a shower got changed and when out for a smoke.. life is good